the days when you looked at me differently, 

i looked at myself differently

you looked at me through shades of grey,

at times i was confusing, i know,

i haven't always known what i wanted

what i needed

i felt an upheaval of matter,

my heart separating

when you looked at me in anger

i was always sorry

on occasion,

you looked at me through the glassiness of your own pain

you needed me, for a change

i held you beneath stars

waves crashing

10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1

we held each other into the new year

the nights we spent together in the dark

when we could not see

when our hands found each other

under tangles of white sheets

when we needed each other

when you looked at me through pure eyes

like i was everything you had been missing

like you'd found me

when you looked at me like no one has looked at me since

like i was the answer to the question you'd been asking yourself your whole life

L is for the way you look at me.

you never stopped looking at me

i was the first to break

i always lose

sometimes i wish i'd feel your eyes again

some days i wish you'd look at me, just one last time.

then maybe i could look at myself again